a reluctant atheist

I'm an atheist who wishes she wasn't. Life would be so much easier!

About A Reluctant Atheist

I’m a 50-ish, married, mother of four and a professional. I have a nice career, a nice home, good friends, a wonderful husband and a loving family. I’m fortunate enough to have a great relationship with my parents and grandparents. Most of these relationships are based at least partly on everyone else’s false belief that I’m a Christian. That I believe in God. I don’t.

My blog will be my exploration of just why it’s so difficult to admit I’m an atheist in a largely religious community. Many conservatives shout that there’s a War on God, but that war is fought with a blade that cuts both ways.  At the opposite end of the spectrum are those of us who are atheists or agnostics, and most of us feel just as threatened as ultra-conservative Christians. We’re considered the lunatic fringe.

Why am I so reluctant to divulge my lack of faith? Because the result could destroy relationships I value immensely and hurt people I love dearly. So my journey begins. I hope others who are hiding their lack of belief or worried about what people will say when the reveal themselves will join me on my journey while I explore the unending conflict between what I believe (or don’t believe) and how I live. And I hope others will share their stories.

2 thoughts on “About A Reluctant Atheist

  1. Wow! Our stories are almost identical. I began my blog for much the same reason. It’s been 2 years since I began the blog journey and around 3 since I admitted that I don’t believe in God anymore. My family still doesn’t know, with the exception of my husband, who is also atheist. It would crush them all, especially my mom. Please know that you have a friend walking with you on this journey.

    • Thank you so much for your kind words! I do suspect that there are a lot more people out there than we realize who are walking the same path. It’s just so hard to admit that you’re an atheist when you come from generations of believers. I’ve been searching for some way to connect with others who also want to do good works and commune with each other, but haven’t found anything that is the equivalent of congregations for non-believers. It helps to know others feel the same way I do.

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